So tired of thinking.

So tired of waiting.

So tired of dreaming.

So tired of worrying.

The days turn to weeks.

Weeks to months.

And then it is done.

Pain turns to joy.

Fear turns to hope.

Dreaming turns to reality.

But the future seems far.

Those days ahead are out of my reach.

I am tired of thinking.

Tired of waiting

Tired of dreaming

And so tired of worrying.

I am doing fairly well today with keeping on track with my writing schedule! Day 2 and i am excited about how my story is coming along! 😀 still a LONNNNNG Way to go, but I am writing! Better to be doing than not doing, right? 😀

So, as I push ever onwards with my story…I feel such a rush and a sense of accomplishment when I see the word count rising!

Having spent the last few hours catching up with my part written novel and writing new chapters, I have increased my word count by more than 2,500 words! Go me! 😀

Due to one thing or another, I haven’t spent a lot of time on my blog as of late. In fact, I haven’t even switched on my computer. I really want to get back into writing. I have so many projects that I want to work on and so many avenues I want to pursue for work.

The whole reason for me giving up my day job was so that I could be at home more with my family, providing them with support, but it was also a good opportunity for me to dive into a career as a freelance writer. I have other ambitions that I will one day pursue and my craving to be a midwife has not disappeared, but for now I want to focus on trying my hand at writing professionally.

But where do I start? It’s so easy to sit on my computer chair, kick my computer into gear and get my fingers ready on the keys…..but then that’s where I pause….I don’t really know where to begin. I have seen many articles about writing as a freelance but the advice is sometimes outdated or not applicable to someone like me, who is just starting out.

A few months ago, I enrolled on the writers bureau writing course – this is for fiction writing and I am keen to get started but there is always something else to do or somewhere else to be. My mind has been distracted a lot in recent months but I am very keen to turn it all around.

I have got course folder out, and I am thinking about that first piece of work. I am drafting short stories and I am keen to get myself out there more.

I am going to start spending more hours writing, and hopefully turn out some work that may appeal to publishers etc.

Lying in bed, with my husband snoring beside me and I can’t sleep…..

I feel hot, so I stick my leg out but feel cold….so I pull it back in.

I feel uncomfortable and try to shift position but nothing works….

I feel anxious and stressed but I can’t really say why. I am going over and over things in my head, conversations I’ve had or not had, etc. I feel like I can’t relax, my stomach is in knots and my heart is racing….

There are so many things swimming around my head and I can’t switch any of it off….



I wish tonight was a one off but I’ve felt like this for so long now. This isn’t the first sleepless night I’ve had…

I must try to close my eyes….