The moment you were born I cried
I had wished for you for so long
And there you were
Lying in my arms, expectantly
Eyes blinking, fists clenching, mouth screaming.
I breathed in your scent,
Looked into your eyes
And felt thankful that you were mine.
For a moment our eyes met and you frowned.
Did you know who I was?
Even in those few early moments?
You were so small and precious
Such a delight to behold
The love I felt was instant,
The feelings took over my soul,
But with love came worry, followed by fear
I was scared that I would let you down
Or that I would be poor at my job.
I wanted to be your mommy for so long
But what if I got it wrong?
What if you failed to flourish?
Or copied my bad habits?
What if you lived to wish for more
More than I could give.
I pushed these worries away quickly
As fast as they had came.
If I did just one thing right in my life
It would be to give you everything I had.
Your life will be amazing.
It will be worth living.
I will give you anything you need.
I will forever be your shoulder,
Forever be your guide.
I hope you have a happy life
But for the days that you are sad,
I will always be by your side
I promise to love you for as long as I breathe